Words to Remember

It was the first week of April 2011; sorry can't really remember the exact date, when I graduated. Our school invited a female guest speaker. She is definitely not your typical one, I mean she rocks! she's not too formal standing behind the podium giving her speech like it was some kind of sermon, but rather she's having a conversation with us; the graduating students! 


By the way, she is Gang Badoy  best known for co-hosting the radio talk show Rock Ed Radio on NU 107, and for being the founder of Rock Ed Philippines. She  was also given the Ten Outstanding Young Men or TOYM Award sometime in November 2010. (AND I WAS THERE during the TOYM Awarding and met her in personal!!) Salutations to you ma'am! I really admire you ;) The encounters with you, are...are one of the small events in my life that brought big enlightenment.


Back about what I was saying, yeah, her speech. The conversation/ speech she gave is long, not dreadfully (?) long but I can assure everyone it is not, in anyway, boring! I can't remember the exact words, but I can still recall her gestures on stage and the meaning of her every sentences like it all happened yesterday. And up until today, I treasure what I have understand, it has become my stepping ground and now, it is my motivation.


The ending of her speech is about us, or rather me; as an individual, a part of a community, a country, and a world. She said: "Someday, you will be the source" (Can't really remember the preceding sentences!) and that how I must be responsible with my usage of today's technology and such.


From that day on wards, I said and kept in mind, that not all adults are pain, There are others which are cool, and that includes her of course! I thought that I don't want to be an adult sooner cause every adult tends to be so stubborn that they forgot what it is to dream like you are not risking anything at all; like a child.


I will be the change, no matter how small I might be. 


P.S. 


oh how I wish I can rock the world Philippines the way she does \m/

The Value of Friendship

Friends..Yep, friends and friendship. We all love to have friends, hang out with them; watching movies, food tripping, joy rides, chatting, laughing..doing things we just happened to think of at the moment. If you haven't noticed it yet, try to observe how it is more comfortable to stay over your friends' house than your own, where you can act all crazy doing things that others can't comprehend.

My friends, I do love them very much! they were like siblings to me, and like those cliche moments on movies and TV's, we do fight, gets into arguments, then get back together being sorry, with a little crying moment but sometimes, sorry isn't enough to remove such pains, and have to go back and just be 'acquaintances'.

But the hardest thing is to treat someone your friend, cared for them, console them and in the end he/she doesn't think of you as one. Stupid as it sounds like, but some people only tend to have is for them to use, and ask for help whenever they needed it. And that is reality, sooner or later you'll encounter them so be prepared.

Advice: If ever you encounter one, and you're hurt badly, forgive that's the best thing to do for yourself and the best revenge you can give. Erase them in you FB, delete them in your contacts, avoid them, get angry, avoid them, throw fruit loops..do ya think that's gonna hurt them? sweetie, are you really sure they mind you so much to notice those things if ever you do that?

Forgive and move on, a lot of things could still happen, don't try and live a sullen world..It would be your lost if you continue to dread about what you lost. You never know someone is wanting you to be their friend. :)

SH*T!

As I have observed, posts with disturbing curses as titles get more views rather than those boring, too-formal-titled posts. I don't really get why people would bother to read such messages instead of the useful ones, they won't benefit from it nor will they earn honor.

I can't remember since when have I been addicted in using the internet and be so dependent in technology; using smart phones, laptops, digital cameras, etc., for as what I remember my childhood years are simple, I play outside on our yard, play with dolls, read children's book, watch teletubbies and other things a typical child would do. The scariest thing would be my mother's scoldings and that my toys will be placed somewhere I don't know.

But the question is, what does a typical child do in today's modern world? would they still be playing with lame dolls or trucks? or PSPs, Ipods, and other gadgets are their best friends now?

Kids are suppose to play the normal way, participating in various physical activities, nourishing their selves with knowledge from a little adventure in the garden and learning the right manner and behavior. But I have noticed, that instead of doing those things, they already have gadgets to accompany them. I remember my 3 year old cousin having a PSP, he doesn't go to school yet, but he owns such a good thing.

I really do not have a grudge against using the technology, for I too, is dependent on it. But what I hate the most is the irresponsible use of the internet. Everyone, I really mean EVERYONE can use the internet regardless of what age you are, it is accessible anywhere and anytime. But why is that, people chose to post or share some explicit materials on the net knowing that children or teens might see it? Why can't we be responsible enough?

Gathering information is just a few type and one click away too, but sadly, we can't be sure if it's genuine, for anyone can manipulate it. Technology really made are life easy by providing the services we need. We just need to remember that we should think of the consequences of our actions.

And lastly, as we progress, and the technology goes beyond imagination, what will become of our God given gifts, talents and skills if we were just to depend on our silly man made materials? Will we still have our traditions or just like the Aztecs, will we perish and become a part of the history?

EPI: Essay: College Life

Anxiety is eating me up!!

People say that college is fun and you can get the exact freedom you are looking for. But I say, College is such a scary thing--- well, maybe at first. The thought of going to college scares me the most. Why? Well, I won't be able to meet with my friends whom I was with for the past 9 years of my life, I've been accustomed to same routines that I'm scared of the changes that were to happen, I don't know how to react to my new environment since I came from another place, I know no one, I lack communication skills and last but not the least I'll have to develop a new identity, for everything that I have earned when I was in High School will no longer be in use except, of course, for the academic skills.

Whether I like it or not, I have to open a new chapter of my life. I need to keep moving forward. And so, with my whole being full of thought, frustrations, and anxiety I welcomed my College Life taking up the course which I wasn't sure If I can really make it or I do love it. Basically, I never planned on a specific University to attend, any will do so long as it has a a good education, but then attending the Pamantasan being a scholar is..well..a cumbersome thing. I have to work harder than before and people expect so much from me. It pressures me a lot.

It was quite a relief to to find new people who got the same interest with me. It was thanks to them that I open up and talk more about myself and other things. At first, I'm not really sure if I should trust them, talk with them, or get acquainted, maybe it's because I've been attending the same school since elementary until I graduated high school that I never got the chance to meet new people and let alone trust them to acknowledge me. But as the days passed by, I have realize, that aside from my friends from high school, I met  the most wonderful beings in the world, their personalities compliments each other that makes an excellent tandem. I have finally accepted that I, like everyone else, must change for the better, that I must take opportunities, that the bonds I made back when I was in high school should not hold me back or slow down my pace. There's a lot more to discover, for I am only venturing the beginning of college-- the most crucial and exciting part of life. 

EPI: Essay : Person you admire

The girl who cut the barbed wires

"Lahat kayo parang may barbed wires na naka-ikot sa inyo, hindi ko kayo malapitan!" This was the statement of my high school classmate back when we are having our retreat.

She is a quiet one, prefers to be alone and doesn't like to be with others-- but that was just the way I see her. We've been classmate since 3rd year high school but I never noticed her until we where in 4th year. Why? I got myself a lot of genuine friends, I'm happy, and I'm satisfied with the amount of people around me. It is selfish I know, but I think that most people would actually do the same- to only notice their close circle of friends and the others are just merely a friend to acknowledge some time. She's been the center of insults and most of my guy friends teases her, saying stuffs that anyone would feel very annoyed. But then there she is, smiling and shrugging it off like it was just a normal statement to hear everyday.

I don't remember how I first talked to her nor the place where we spend a little time, but I surely do remember the things she opened up about herself. I was shocked, yet I show no hint of it to keep my cool, that her parents got separated, she and her siblings where 'distributed' to their relatives and that she is currently living with her relative who treats her like she is a stranger and humiliates her in front of people. But the most devastating is, she never felt the essence of having a father for she only receives financial support from him.

Knowing this, does not change the fact that I never tried to completely save her from those hurtful jokes and that I never became the friend she needed the most during those times she can no longer hold on, instead I was one of those who were 'sidekicks' to those who made the jokes. It was thanks to the retreat, that I finally changed my view of her and accepted her the way she is.

With her statement, I felt so guilty, I realize how lucky I am to have my friends who are always willing to help me and that I have my family in tact.  It made me cry at the same time, it made me admire her. All those time, she was hurt, but never stop her journey in life. She showed strength, though no one appreciates it, been so sincere, though everyone take her efforts for granted and lastly, she value her life and been matured accepting the challenges in life and treated her problem as a step stone to improve who she is today, unlike those stupid people who commits suicide just to escape reality.

In the face of the world, she maybe a nobody but a single person. But to me, she has a greater value than that, no words can express how valuable she is, and how much I appreciate her. Thanks to her that I was able to enlighten myself about how lucky I am, that I must not take things for granted and I must not be superficial-- to not only look on a person's physical attributes but to accept them for who they are in heart. 

EPI: Poems (Love & Bio)

Confession

Three words I longed to say,

But I'm afraid you might shrug it off and go away,

So I pretend not to feel this way,

Just to make sure you are my friend and by my side you'll stay.

Sorry I'm not a beauty,

For you to call me honey.

But I love you is what I want to utter,

Even if this won't make your heart flutter..

I had this published on our school publication (back when I was in high school) and didn't put my name as the author. It was easy for me to slip in a poem since I'm the one -together with the EIC who fix the paper- and made it look like it was from someone else. If anyone find this, I 'm sorry guys if I have to lie about this, its just that it really is a confession for the guy I liked for 4 long years but then I don't want to humiliate myself! So, please forgive me ;)

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I see..me!

Silly little woman I am,

And never fails to cram.

But I enjoy everything I do,

Even if I end up feeling blue.

Overnights are what I love the most,

As long as I don't hunt for ghost.

With my friends I feel so alive.

And If I loose them I don't know how to survive.

I take my studies seriously,

But temptation never fails to come daily.

And so I decided to force my self to study,

Else, I am to grow old a dummy.

Geez, I never did anthing so great,

And feel like I'm such a cheapskate.

But someday through efforts,

I will live a life of comforts.

EPI: Haiku

Friendship:

The heart full of trust,
And he who see through thy facade
Are good friends to keep.

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Family:

A gift everyone has,
Of which we value so deep
A treasure to keep

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Environment:

greener than the grass,
brighter than the big blue sky
A paradise to see.

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School:

A man made structure
That holds the good memories,
Oh, Alma- mater

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About myself:

The lil' me you see,
Is flooded by dreams so big
Until the bright sky