Anxiety is eating me up!!
People say that college is fun and you can get the exact freedom you are looking for. But I say, College is such a scary thing--- well, maybe at first. The thought of going to college scares me the most. Why? Well, I won't be able to meet with my friends whom I was with for the past 9 years of my life, I've been accustomed to same routines that I'm scared of the changes that were to happen, I don't know how to react to my new environment since I came from another place, I know no one, I lack communication skills and last but not the least I'll have to develop a new identity, for everything that I have earned when I was in High School will no longer be in use except, of course, for the academic skills.
Whether I like it or not, I have to open a new chapter of my life. I need to keep moving forward. And so, with my whole being full of thought, frustrations, and anxiety I welcomed my College Life taking up the course which I wasn't sure If I can really make it or I do love it. Basically, I never planned on a specific University to attend, any will do so long as it has a a good education, but then attending the Pamantasan being a scholar is..well..a cumbersome thing. I have to work harder than before and people expect so much from me. It pressures me a lot.
It was quite a relief to to find new people who got the same interest with me. It was thanks to them that I open up and talk more about myself and other things. At first, I'm not really sure if I should trust them, talk with them, or get acquainted, maybe it's because I've been attending the same school since elementary until I graduated high school that I never got the chance to meet new people and let alone trust them to acknowledge me. But as the days passed by, I have realize, that aside from my friends from high school, I met the most wonderful beings in the world, their personalities compliments each other that makes an excellent tandem. I have finally accepted that I, like everyone else, must change for the better, that I must take opportunities, that the bonds I made back when I was in high school should not hold me back or slow down my pace. There's a lot more to discover, for I am only venturing the beginning of college-- the most crucial and exciting part of life.
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